Archive for October, 2007

Happy On-Calling

My very first after hours on-call business came in at about 8:34pm. I was sitting in the couch, eating hot spicy pork soup out of a big glass bowl while watching Dr. “Becker” was having a funny conversation with his girlfriend Chris. It was loud but cosy. I thought I probable will be lucky enough to get a quiet week, but I was wrong. The phone was ringing.

The call was from a rural town about 15 minutes from Crookwell, where my client was trying to find someone to be there tomorrow afternoon as she was going to a family funeral. I wrote down all the details on my yellow notepad packed up by my boss this morning and kind of was prepared to take an action.

However about 10 minutes later, the problem sorted as the client rang in to say she had found the another back-up plan. I was happy for her but started to worry about how I am going to deal with tonight, if someone did ring in, like at 3am. I am not quite sure if I can carry out like an ordinary people instead of yawning a very dry “hell0″ at this end of line. Before we left the office this afternoon, my boss told me that she wouldn’t mind to be pulled up from her bed by me, even it was 3 o’clock in the morning, just to say “hello, this is what I have done, is that okay?” I promised her I would try very hard to bother her :-) knowing that usually this is not gonna happen anyway.

So, Now is 22:50pm. It’s the time to think about where I should put that emergency phone :-)

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The thoughts about how to be a smart worker

Here are some thoughts, based on what’s recently ACTUALLY happening in the office and what have been perceived by people about what’s happening in the office:

A. People play games. It’s definitely something inevitable in this world. We see it in the previous human being’s history, and in their natures all the time.

B. People are different and can never reach an agreement as down deep inside their skin, it’s all about “THEMSELVES”. No one, would ever give away their “SELF” to make other people win, or make a better world.

C. People can be very mean and nasty. Be careful with this. You will always come across people who has two faces, people who can not live without dramas, people who gives hard time to other people because their interest conflicts and only one can win at the end, and, the people who stabs you at your back.

D. There are always people who bitches up on other people. People never stop gossipping.

But, with the thoughts that I had just proposed, it doesn’t mean the world is dark and we shouldn’t be optimistic. Here are some other thoughts to live a happy office life:

A. Never team up with anyone, no matter what they had offered to you.

B. Do what’s right and never give other people an opportunity to give you a shit where you have not something to stand firmly on your ground.

C. Never ever to stab other people at their back, if you have to, do it without an evidence that could be caught by the people whom you stabbed.

D. Always try to work with your brain, not with your heart. A career doesn’t need your emotion and passion gettting involved too much. No one can afford any of mental exhaustion at the end of the day. People who has passion towards their job fails the first.

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3 Hours Earlier

At our home, this year’s Day Time Saving started from Saturday night. We tuned every clock (watch) that we could find in this house making them one hour earlier. As a result, the time difference between Canberra and Beijing is 3 hours, which means when the bed time comes up at about 10pm for us, my mom and dad probably are watching CCTV’s news (if they still keep this sort of habit). It certainly would make my intention of calling China have to go through a second thought.

However, being able to walk in 4’oclock sun instead of 5pm after the work can be very nice. So is cooking for dinner. I suppose my husband probably has found the same, as he can paddle with day light on in that lake, instead of paddling in the dark black cold water, knowing and seeing nothing around the boat.

The only problem is, I can’t get up in the morning, when radio is on where Ross talking energetically to someone who rang in to ask a question or tell a story, while I was struggling with my free will to lift my eye lids, so my body. Are these people out of their minds? Laughing and joking at such an early time? Have they ever gone to sleep last night? I used to admire broadcaster’s job, but now….nah!!

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A Little Summary

After one month’s no driving practise at all (due to my ankle problem), I got on the road again this morning for shopping around for our this week’s groceries. First was going to Dickson for Asian food, then to Fyshwick for veggies and fruits, the last was back to Queanbeyan for other stuff.

After I got back home, I was urged to write up a small summary on my driving practise so far, like how I think about my current driving skills, what I have achieved and what I haven’t done well enough, and the most importantly, what’s the next step to improve.

You won’t believe this. I got my learner’s license right after I landed my feet in Australia in 2002, about the same time when we bought the first car and my husband got his first License. Very shortly, about 1 month later, my husband passed his driving test and got his red P. I remember his first trip after the test was driving to Wollongong with a load of people in our car on a sunny Saturday. Well, I was falling way far behind.

I didn’t learn how to drive at all in the next 3 years until my husband had turned his red P to Green, then to a full license in 2005. My old L license got expired at the same time, I had to sit the stupid knowledge test again to get it renewed, which was pretty awkward when I had to tell my story to RTA’s counter staff to request a booking.

Early of next year in 2006, we bought a new car. It actually gave me the opportunity to start to practise driving without worrying about ruining our possessions under the supervision of my husband. Well, you can imagine how interesting that would be. I mean under the supervision of your partner, I swear, if I had any second better choice, I would have avoided it :-)

Well, he is a very very strict coach, not mentioning the hard parts we have undergone, mentally and emotionally, on both of us. I have no doubt that if he had instructed me to enter the final on a woman’s 100 metres’ Olympic race, I would successfully get myself up there, right behind the scratch line to be able to run with those world-class athletes…..seriously, no kidding :-) He once told me after I drove the car back home that he could have lived up to 160 years old, but now, since he had instructed me driving, he probably could only make it to 100. Likewise, I told him that I could have had less grey hair growing in my hair if I had never driven a car under his supervision.

But this is it….loads of quarreling, fighting, arguing, and disagreement in our mobile little house (Frankly, we never opened the window when I was driving), we are still staying in our unbreakable companion to achieve a goal, which is important to me and the family as well. So, I was thinking when I was driving, it must be something good in this relationship between the coach and the student, as finally, I am getting there, from scratch to a good and confident feeling that I have now, and, with the help of him, I am truly grateful and glad for myself.

So, thank you, for all your time and all the brain cells that had died because of me :-)

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A Season in Red

I suppose that I am getting to the stage where my mind can surrender to my heart :-) I am not sure how many percentage of rational thinking actually had been involved to my every single decision, but clearly I know this time, right the moment when I was standing among rows of rows of book shelves in the library, my hands followed my unconstrained feelings of “let the heart say”…..

So I picked this book “A Season in Red”, leaving my favourite author Peter Myle’s two books about Provence behind, I brought this little book home. Didn’t know who is Kirsty Needham, didn’t know how much a foreigner’s point of view about new booming China would appeal to me, the only expectation I had was to know what sort of words a westerner would use to describe some Chinese dishes by the time I finished reading this book.

I was shocked, only after one third of the book that has been done, not by the depth that the author had touched, but the scope that she had covered. I still couldn’t believe this is something written by a foreigner who had only been Beijing for 3 months. I wondered why I couldn’t have that insight after five and half years’ time spent in this country exactly the same like her, as a foreigner. The same excitement, and the same thrill, the difficulties and the brand new cultural experience…..I have been like a stone, bloody dead like it has been a thousand years. Where are my eyes? Where are my ears and where are my thoughts?

The experience from both sides of these two countries seem having all faded away. I kind of lost my plot at both places. Now I don’t even know what’s the right definition of Qian Hai and Hou Hai. Should I make it come under the category of local bar culture or a new rising phenomenon of how modern Chinese embrace their lifestyle or kill their spare time in a posh way?

Well, back to this hemisphere, I suppose that I have never gotten to know what the posh way is to kill my time here, all I am concerned is kangaroos, trees full of flowers and the idyllic scenes of lake or mountain views. I am like a farmer enjoying his boring land but still keeps finding something new with big excitement every day. So how we used to call those people like me in China? tu lao mao? mei jian shi? or nong min?

The only difference is, I was deeply pleased and settled with my status quo, not a tiny bit of worry about what image that I am being seen by others right now. And Down under the skin, I know that I don’t have anything that can distinct me from those immigrant peasant workers, described by the book, who had left their hometowns and rushed into big cities like Beijing or Shanghai to make a better living.

Actually, I was surprised at my reaction towards the criticise from our harsh foreigners, who probably know nothing about what a long way we Chinese had travelled to come to today’s place. Funnily, rather than feeling offended, which I had assumed that I would have or I did have in the past, I found it really enjoyable to know how other people look at me and other Chinese, and I was amazed that I have become a person who starts to accept who I am.

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Dreams

最近这周,从星期一到星期五,天天晚上睡得累乎乎的。早上起来浑身酸软、疲倦,象刚生了一场大病。更折磨人的是:这段时间每晚都做些稀奇古怪的梦。一会儿梦见大学时代的生活,一会又梦见二十多年没见过的故人。虽然没有一个是噩梦,但多多少少有些悲凉的成分。早上醒来,恍然意识到时光不再,故人已去,不由联想到过往年轻时留有的遗憾和曾经的过失,不免心里有些淡淡的凉意。

我本来不是个喜欢怀旧的人,不过怀旧倒也自然,偶尔出现倒也罢了。让我觉得更疲倦的是梦境中的荒唐。前天晚上,我竟然梦见自己擒拿了一个偷窃我自行车的小姑娘。我凶神恶煞地穷追不舍,非逼人家说出姓名、地址和所在学校。最后她告诉我她在体师开办的一所中专就读。那么多年住在体师后门进出的地方,我从来没听说过体师还有中学。不过在梦里,我就相信了。

倒也奇怪,那个年轻的女孩子犹豫了一下,居然什么都招给我了。事后,我还专门跑到体师家属宿舍楼去找他闹事,结果碰上她的邻居,个个听了我的故事后都面带轻蔑,但一点也不惊讶于这个女孩做出这样的事情来,好像她似乎有“前科”,名声不太好。

梦醒后,我想起这事儿,自己都觉得很惊愕,搞不明白我为什么会跟一个手无寸铁、比我小那么多的小女孩儿较真儿,还那么不依不饶、步步紧逼。我试图反省这女孩儿在我现实中所代表的符号和象征意义——被侵犯感?对困境的一种自信的控制感?或者需要一种对自我猜测和言行举止的肯定和进一步强化?……

我无从知晓,但是潜意识里我最不愿意承认的一种可能性是:我已经到了一个开始要嫉妒年轻人的年龄。这种想法让我有点颤栗。难道这会是我为什么要和一个年轻女孩子为敌的原因???不过我不明白的是,在我的生活中,基本上并没有这样一个现实具体的年轻人物的存在,我自己也一直认为在对待衰老的问题上比较从容而冷静。

好在所有的梦里都看不到焦虑的情绪,否则我会不会感觉更累呢?也好在所有的梦在我醒来之后都烟消云散,不管是我想努力抓住和挽留的瞬间,还是挣扎苦痛的时刻,一切都在我睁开眼睛后变成回忆,是另外一个世界里我的一段短暂的存在,和留下的淡淡的痕迹。

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